Silencearoundinthisdeadofnightthenight,mymindlikeascreeningofthefilmaslittleflashedpastyears,rememberedthedaysoflivingwiththeirparents.Perhapsthereasonthousandsofmilesfromhome,isputtingabunchofsadmelancholythoughtspull-outaffair.Inthatrebelliousage,Ihavebecomeincompatiblewiththemother'stemperament,andhermother,tiredofwalkinginthestreets,tiredofthemother'swordsanddeeds,alwayswithherworkagainst,forthemother,howsaditis!NowIhaveamother,tiredofwatchinghissonandtoldrepeatedlynaggingme,Ideeplyunderstandasamother,hasdoneallforlove.Thatyearthecollegeentranceexamination,Istillgoitsownway,nolittlesenseofurgency,theparentsshortnessofbreath,andsitdownandtoldmemanythings,theyarealsoadmittedtotheUniversity'sbrightfuture,butIwillnotlisten.Result,Isufferedacrushingdefeatintheentrance,onlyadmittedtoaregularschool.Inlaterwork,becausethendonotworkhardanddonotlisten,andImissedmanyopportunities,frustrationandfailurecanonlybeleftalonetofacethefight,andnow,Ionlyregretnotcopeout.FatherhadcometoHarbintovisitme,becauseI'mbusyworking,toleave,Iletmyfathergotothestationtobuytheirowntickets.Now,myfatherandIhavebeenseparatedyinandyang,Ideeplyfeelguilty,theparentsraisedme,andIQueduiparentsdo?Justletthemfeelscaredagainandagain......Iknowtheexperiencerichparents,allbecauseoflove,selfless,anddoeverythingtheydidformylifetomakeallkindsofideas,theywantlessfrustrationinmylife,allthewaysmooth,butatthetime,Icannotunderstand.Afteralotofdetours,untilaftertheparents,Iwasnevertheteachingsoftheirownexperience,justfeeltheyhavegivenmesomuchlove,buttounderstandtheminthatmoment,Ihavenoturningback.Theloveofmyparentsandcountlesssleeplessnightsinthis,onlynostalgiathattimeaway,hardtimeslingeringnostalgiafamily.Now,mylifegraduallybecamerich,andwanttoreturnwhentheirparents,howcanIlovethem?Elegant分分给我吧